I've tried all the pills all the people all the teams and clubs and classes I've tried the time away from work and home running dancing drinking I've tried shutting off and out I've tried opening up and in I've tried pretend and hope I've tried eating and not eating hitting and pushing and shoving and not one thing moves me to somewhere else today I don't try I'm done I'm over I'm alive because my dog is here I'm alive because I have that kid expecting to see me on Friday. I'm alive because I haven't been killed or murdered or I'm alive because I'm not dead. I've tried to be alive I've tried to not be dead.

Can't find it

In one second another second is lived with inspiration it will pass quick act on this not quick enough it is gone lie on the couch numb your brain empty it berate it lost it can't find it she told me to find the absolute truth I can't find one not good enough she continues you need a truth I don't have a truth I can't find it I'm tired I'm done finding it

Hello world

I am Amelia Hugehart,variety of our former Amelia Earhart. Variation and I am The pilot, the social worker, the pioneer, activist, inspiration inspiring and inspired to question act and defend. Hello world. I defend that I am here. I'm not sorry.